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why is it that we must play upon each other's feelings? why can't love be love? and like be like? and infatuation be what it is? why must we force feelings into molds and definitions that they don't belong in?

they say the truth hurts... but i think the confusion hurts more. lets forget about what we dreamed the relationship would be. lets leave it where it is, and quit trying to make it into more. maybe friendship is what is meant for us. so accept that. quit banking on the fact that i care. just because you know that doesn't mean you should be abusing your knowledge.

i don't want to live in the dream world anymore. "In between 'once upon a time' and 'they lived happily ever after' is called now. And in the now there are all kinds of failure we have to live with. Failure can change us, shape us, teach us, and motivate us. Failure can be our friend." says Erwin McManus. So lets take his words. Lets consider this failure, and let it be our friend. and if nothingness is too much for you to handle lets be friends.

but be aware, the more your break my heart, the harder it is for me to hear from you, talk to you, or see you. so be careful. because you are walking on thin ice.

you see, my heart was healing. we needed to be strangers for a while. but that isn't working for you. so here you are, tearing at my heart. making a mess of this.

and the worst thing is, you're a good guy. you are. everyone says so. and you aren't verbally or physically abusive in any way. yet somehow. i'm sitting here, blogging. blogging about letting go.

moving on.

which is exactly what you need to do.

because i still am. even with this going on. i still know that it is time to move on.