apathetic? not so much...

lately I’ve realized that I am emotional. No matter how much I want to be laid back and relaxed, I am still full of emotions. I cannot help but care.

For example, the VA Tech tragedy. Do I know anyone involved? No. Does my heart still ache for them? Yes.

Or what about last night…. My friend and I weren’t communicating clearly. Its not that something was wrong between us. We weren’t arguing, fighting, etc. We just were not understanding what was happening with the other person and we had no time to figure it out. So I went to sleep frustrated. Not just a little frustrated, but a lot. This morning we ran into each other, and talked about the miscommunication. Each of us were confused and sad because we felt like the other person was saying something that was not being said. So now, everything is fine. But its another great example of how I respond emotionally.

I care. Whether I know you or not, I care. My heart overflows, and I cannot stop it. But do I really want to? Or maybe instead of changing this part of me, I should just realize that simple fact and apply that knowledge to the situations.

The key factor in this is that its about people. I am passionate about people and building relationships. The unfortunate thing is that the passion does not cover projects. Do I want to do well with physical tasks? Yes. Is that where my heart is? No.

thus in a culture of apathy, I cannot conform. I cannot help but care.