the heart on my hand

its on my left hand.

its a symbol of how i want to be. freely loving. regardless of the stuff. i don't want to care about the legalistic issues. i want to care about people. i want to stop using judgment as condemnation, and start using it as evaluation. i get so caught up in things that realistically should not even matter.

and where did the spiritual arrogance that i hear in my voice come from? because i hate it. i hate knowing that it has slipped into my vocabulary. its like poison. and i cannot have it anymore.

i need to be real. and i need to be realistic.

so the heart on my hand says that i need to be as unconditional in love as i have received.

and it makes my mom talk about how she doesn't love tatoos.