miss independent

so i've been told that i've become very free-spirited and independent.

and i suppose its true. but the funny thing is that part of me has always wanted to be that way. i've just never really felt like it. i mean other than when i'm driving with the convertible top down on a sunny day...

but on the other hand, i don't think people realize how much i need them. not in the "i just couldn't live without you" kind of way, but rather in the "i love that you're part of my life" way. there is a reason that i have friends. i think they are awesome.

so the free-spirited idea is also up for debate. in one sense, i have become my own person. however at the same time, i can see all the ways that i have transformed and conformed to various pieces of my life. right now i feel like i'm a really fluid person. i become what i need to become based upon the situation. not that i'm a jelly-fish. just that i will adjust and compensate to be what is needed.

basically, its all about perspective. i do want to be independent and free-spirited (not in the hippie- pot smoking way) but that doesn't necessarily mean that i've arrived in either of those destinations.